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Devious Journal Entry

Sat Dec 20, 2014, 2:56 AM
No, wait don't go, this one isn't full of depressing crap.

You can see I've been making journals left and right. I do that, because really, I have nowhere else to vent my thoughts, feelings and frustrations on/to. No one nearby is willing to listen to me and I don't have someone I talk to, either close by or online on a regular basis. Frankly, the only person that I did used to talk to every single day was her. So you can see why I abuse dA. But anyway..,

People I know are really fed up with my constant negativity. But what do you expect my entire life has been nothing but shit the last year. I have yet to find any sunshine or puppies. But buried beneath my disdain for my life, there are plans I haven't shared. Mostly because of the fact I have little faith they'll be carried out to fruition cause that's just how family plans have turned out in the past, but now we kinda have no choice left.

The house my mother and I live in, my passed grandparent's home, needs to be sold for desperately needed funds. My mother owes the state of Washington $14,000 from when grandma was being cared for in a Hospice center before her death. That money is in the form of a lean on our house. When we sell it, that amount gets taken away. But thankfully the house isn't that much of a piece of crap that losing $14k will actually hurt us. The market value of the house is a couple hundred thousand, and when we sell it, we have a list of things we're going to do with it. One, we're going to use a bulk of it to find a smaller place to live in, out of town, most likely a Condo that we can buy outright. Then my car will be paid off completely, so then we'd only need to keep paying Insurance. Then my mother is going to get her own car again. She had to sell hers in order to help with the bills, and since my car is kinda small, it's difficult for her to use it, so now she's basically stuck in the house every day, save for going on those needed trips to the store or bank. And with the leftovers we'll live somewhat bearably until however long it lasts us, or if I get a second job/better paying job. Right now, my job at Lowe's is plain garbage. The days and hours makes it a dead end that barely pays. Besides, I don't believe I belong in a retail setting. I'm too emotional and depressed a lot of the time, and when I get hit with negativity, it takes all the kings horses and all the kings men to get me to lighten up again. And I'd rather not get fired for giving the customer the cold shoulder. But, that's the plan right now. There's actually a chance we won't have to go through a Realtor. My mother has a cousin in the area who's interested in buying the house from us and turning it into a rental, so that way we know we have a dedicated buyer and we'll get the entire amount, minus the government lean. We're hoping this takes place as soon as next month, but I still can't help but to be cynical about it all. Nothing ever works out the way we want for us. Our whole lives can be summed up as continuous struggles.

Here's hoping.


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schorpioen007 Featured By Owner 2 days ago
Hello ?
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
Hello.
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schorpioen007 Featured By Owner 2 days ago
My name's Lightning Specter, niceto meet you ^^
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
Okay, I'm mike.
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jeoong94 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
i don't know why but i like your stuffs.
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
Well, that was still a nice thing to say, so thank you.
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silverbolt999 Featured By Owner 4 days ago
what happened to your icon?
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
I had felt like I didn't really want one anymore. A name is good enough.
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silverbolt999 Featured By Owner 4 days ago
okay...
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nightwolf37 Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2014
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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Aang10 Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
why did you delete your kataang fanfic?
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Oh those. I went through some things that made me make rash decisions for this account, until eventually I decided I wanted to make a fresh start with my gallery.
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Aang10 Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
ah I see.
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner May 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
No problem it was a really nice drawing. :)
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ZidaneMina Featured By Owner May 4, 2014
Again, thanks for your support man!. If you need anything DO LET ME KNOW :)
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ZidaneMina Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2014
Yo man, thanks for the fav!. And for the comment at the flame fire hot comunist pony of mine!
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
No problem, was happy to.
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TheRockinStallion Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey, man! This is Rockout (thought currently stuck as Rockette) from EqF! I'm diggin' your gallery!
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Hey, nice to hear from you here. I'm glad you like it, I'll make sure to look yours over as well.
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TheRockinStallion Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanx 4 returning the watch!
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Tessa-G Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
How old r u... ok personal question.. just wondering. U dont have 2 reply ^^
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Me personally? It's on my dA profile next to my username so I guess you mean my character?
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Tessa-G Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
really? well how old's ur character, then?
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ScotchNvl Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I haven't really decided on an exact age. I label him as a Stallion, so at least young adult because of that and since he works as a Guard.
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