2014 just needs to keep being a bitch to me to the bitter end, doesn't it.
As mentioned earlier, I had my very first car break in. It wasn't really broken into seeing as I forgot to lock it when I came home one day, but still my car, my god damned car out of the dozens on my street, was ransacked. At least they didn't go overboard and try to rip out the radio or anything else. But I didn't notice it at all until perhaps days later which pisses me the fuck off.
Relating to the car, the seasons are changing and Mikey needs new tires so he doesn't lose control one day on the Freeway and hydroplane's into a truck or tree. But guess what, like with all things this is going to cost me (and most likely my mother partially) out the god damned ass. $600 for a full set, the cheapest we found. I had to get a damn credit card through the store in order to pay them off monthly.
Relating to money, I just got paid. No, I'm not god damn rich. Twenty two hours. I didn't even get enough for one single car payment. I'm Part Time so I'm only allowed twenty five hour weeks but right now I'm only doing fifteen. And this job isn't even entry level. But isn't it great knowing that breaking your back and hobbling on severely painful feet still won't pay the bills on it's own? Either I find a way to break my back more of the time, or I find a second job. I just find it fucking hilarious how getting my job back hasn't solved any problems but easily made a few more.
Socially I'm still alone, wow, shocker. Nobody gives a shit about me still.
Medically I'm just FULL of "good news". I have stage one Hypertension. My blood pressure is worryingly high and this can lead to Heart Disease, Heart Failure, Stroke, Aneurism, ect. I'm still medically obese. Coming in at a whopping 325lbs I can disgust any girl away by just being close enough to be noticed. Also this compounds the Heart Disease, Stroke shit, not to mention welcomes the family friend, Diabetes. Don't tell me to lose weight. If those words actually worked I'd be a god damned stick already. And to top things off, I'm getting my left big toe nail removed very soon, isn't that neat?
Oh, yeah on a side note about money, I REALLY hope Southwest airlines appreciates the $300 in travel funds that were forfeited late last month because I never spent them. Travel funds that were intended on helping me try and salvage my relationship last year in December, but, she just couldn't wait to move onto man #2
, so the money went unused. And now it's gone. Cause where the fuck else would I have gone.
And on top of everything else? I'm sad. I'm so, god damned mother fucking sad, and I've been so sad for so long, and there's no one that actually wants to be next to me and listen to every single thing that's festering inside. All I have is my mother and any single word that comes out when I feel like I need to speak just pisses her off, so I have to shut the Hell up, and bottle it. I've bottled so much fucking shit that eventually I feel it's going to explode in a very violent fashion one day that may or may not get me in a fuckton of trouble. But I have no choice. No one wants to listen, no one wants to be here for me so it's just gonna keep piling up and getting bigger and eating away at me until I fucking SNAP. And I'm scared of that day.